Do you know who she is?

Do you know who she is?
She is rose in my flowers,
The winter sun in my cold,
The shelter in my rains,
The Bright star in my night,
The fire to my candle,
But alas! her feelings differ from mine.
She is mine in my dreams
But she is a dream in my life.
My heart has been broken in pieces,
I bleeded tears many times.
Once i smiled remembering her,
Now i cud only cry remembering her
But alas! she is always there in my thoughts.
Once i wait for her calls,
Once i want to recieve her mails,
Once i want to recieve her sms,
But alas! they never comes to me.
And my wait never ends.
Once i want her love,
Once i want her touch,
Once i want her feel,
Love from one side gives pain,
and from two it heals.
But alas! it never happend,
And my wounds never healed.
I tear my heart open just to feel the pain,
I shut my lips just to be quite,
I laugh a lot, just to show i am happy,
I don't want to show my wounds
But alas! my eyes are not with me
they are like her, not feel the same as i wish
They shed the tears when they wish.
still don't know who she is?
she is my life,
she is my love,
she is my wish,
she is my never ending wait,
But alas! my wish will never be fulfiled,
And she will always be there in my heart.

My First Love.